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FUCK 2009

upon further reflection, easily my least favorite year




so as my friend cyrus says, i'm gonna TEAR IT OFF THE GODDAMN BONE tonight, wish me luck ;)

I am having another whack at this pinata!

'SPEEDY' MECHANICS:

A side scrolling action/adventure game, with sections which are closer to just plain platforming and sections closer to rpg-type play. The platform sections will have a bunch of pick ups (speedy-safe snacks and shady-snacks - speedy snacks will be wholesome kinds of things like jalapeno hummus, coriander, milkshakes, etc, while shady-snacks will mostly be drugs, booze and cigarettes). the rpg sections will be kind of like towns with some people you can talk to, people you can trade things with and places you can pick up little sidequests or advance the story.

anyway i am thinking of this SPEEDY/SHADY dynamic where Speedy The Rat and Shady The Rat are now...'two sides of the same coin'. Speedy is his regular old self - altruistic, athletic and moral, while Shady represents and embodies his inner demons. Dr. Clocks, Speedy's enemy, is trying to corrupt speedy by leaving drugs all over the place and speedy has to avoid these drugs and catch him in order to stop Dr. Clock's corruption of the Province.

so - if you accidentally pick up say 3 or more SHADY items in a level, you will turn into shady the rat for a period of maybe 30 seconds during which time maybe controls are backwards, things are sped up or colours are inverted (will think about this) and your goal will be to contain as much chaos as possible (maybe shady has a spray paint can he sprays wildly all over the place and you need to steer him away from living things or you lose points)

after the 30 seconds are up, Shady/Speedy will have MORAL CRISIS and revert back to speedy form, with a bunch of items, health or skills missing to represent his repressed memories and amnesia over what he has done as Shady.



more later but i like this so far

hey buddy i miss you still. i have been thinking of you and predict i will continue to during the coming year, and my conscious life. winter - christmas - is a lot less gloomy when you're around.




my family's here and we're getting along really well. my sister's back from africa for a bit. she's really my favorite person a lot of the time, especially when it's just me and her. she's the only person in the world i feel like i can talk to sometimes, and it's only been that way within the past few years. it's really nice.

ending 2009 things for me are... up in the air.

i feel like 98% of it was a waste of fucking time but in another sense i wonder how i could have existed without this year happening, or being in another life entirely. in a way the events and resulting revelations over this past year seem integral to my thought process and entire existence. and in other ways, a waste of time. i will have better answers next year.

i've been making a little more music recently. i don't know if it is related to me not being in university anymore. i think it is. i feel a crushing sense of immediate and lasting irrelevance and obscurity, which i think is a feeling i used to have a lot so maybe that is pushing more creativity out of me. like a poop.

anyway it's all a load of baloney. i was living just as uselessly last year, things just seemed exciting and very fun because i was surrounded by young people i saw as being there to make themselves better and i got caught up in that wave. it was great, i am looking forward to going back to university next year. i really hope i can get a place in a good course.

going home next week. to live with my parents again.

...

i saw the 2-hour pilot very late at night on channel 177 - "CHILLER" - and the following day off watched the first seven-episode season. i've been watching an episode here and there of season two since then, i am up to number eight now i think. they're all on the cbs website. it's under videos and then "classic shows" or something, i have it bookmarked now so i can't recall.

http://www.cbs.com/classics/twin_peaks/index.php anyway

the 2 hour pilot (which you have to watch first) i think is available on youtube. or again, "CHILLER."

it's weird and funny and disturbing and erotic and excellent i think. i like it a great deal, perhaps too much. i glad and surprised it was on television, i think it's a bit too cool for it.

DONT SPOIL ANYTHING FOR ME and you should check it out if you haven't.

DARK DAYS