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current condition: still alive


I had a pretty good Thanksgiving(for those of you non-americans, it's the day the constitution was written) actually.

My girlfriend came over, and we made a bunch of food. We were so tired of cooking by the end of the day. The food turned out really good though, I'm glad I got to help.

anyways, yay for food!!!

This week has been pretty shitty, actually. One good thing happened, but I don't really feel like typing about it. To be completely honest with you, out of this whole week I can only pick out three hours that were really memorable to me. I don't even remember what I did most of the time. Perhaps it's my medication or me being sick, I don't know. I've been feeling weird emotions lately as well, and CONFUSION over many aspects of myself. I wish I would just stop thinking about things so that I didn't feel so shitty about them, and just run on what feels right.

I realize that I might be rambling on incoherently. blah

I don't even know what the fuck I am doing awake. I wish I could sleep, but aches and pains. God damn pneumonia. I will bitch about you on the internet all night until you go away.

School starts again for me in a couple of weeks. I'm thinking of taking a contemporary film study course. It sounds interesting.

gargh sick sick sick

IS GOD

also todays time magazine was pretty amazing they had an article on LOLCATS XD
and how harry potter is ruining religion for ever.


i don't even know what drove me to read time magazine. Boredom? i must've been. anyways as you all may know, time magazine is a bunch of garbage.
Amazing garbage, though.

i have been trying to read books which are about terrorism. To be more specific, terrorism from Islamic Extremists. i haven't really got into reading them though.

i got a haircut yesterday. I am much more hairless then I was previously.
I am also banned from GamingW, to show my solidarity. :) basically i posted a bunch of dicks. I will miss talking to a lot of people there, but it's probably for the best that I move on.

i am now a year older. a year wiser. a year more paranoid.

here's hoping that I get a job soon! I've been trying to apply for a couple of places every couple of days. sooner or later... someone is bound to hire me... I hope.

i hate the fact that it has taken me so long to get a job. if I had one by now, I probably would not be in this town right now. actually you know I probably would still be hanging around in this town, and I'd be working. In a parallel universe, I am complaining about how work sucks and I am a very underappreciated employee.

anyways I am probably going to sleep now.

hello boys and girls.

Things have been going good for me. Applied selling shoes/clothes at a Vans Outlet in the mall and a bunch of other places. Last week was pretty cool, went to WARPED TOURZ with a couple of friends of mine. was pretty interesting. most of the bands there were pretty terrible but Tiger Army was awesome. I hardly ever see any live music, so all in all it was a nice experience. Went out with a girl for about a week, who decided at the end of that week that she didn't really like me in that way and wasn't even sure why she asked me out... and I'm kind of wondering the same thing. maybe she was just using me to garner attention from her ex... who knows.

my birthday is coming up in like three days man. it's gonna be crazy, 19 years old.  i can't wait until I start school again in the fall, I've been really bored! hopefully I do not slack off again like in spring term. :(

have a very patriotic day guyz!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes things aren't worth being sad over. Once you realize how horrible conditions are for other people, you start to feel like crap complaining about yours.

eh, life.

tomorrow will be a day of taking tests for my online courses, since I was too lazy/stressed out about other things to do them during the week, and had a lot to do today. I spent most of today cleaning the house, throwing away all the junk we don't need.

Cleaning my house makes me want to burn it down.

security
seeking a vicinity to
Exit A
collateral to a
urinary tract
rightfully pissings
incognito thoughts
take form as fears
yours truly
security

My perception and views on the world which I have had for most of my life are all crumbling down.

but it's okay, because I can actually feel some good coming out of this. perhaps. Illusions of Optimism!?

i am believe in the heart of the cards........ for now............

i love how i suddenly feel like i've been kicked in the nuts several hundred times

so much for illusions of optimism

Things have actually been going okay as of recently. Yeah, there's the same ol' drama that's always going to be around, probably. But for the most part I am happy. I've been going to school and enjoying it, and I've made a lot of really good friends along the way.

Well, I am pretty tired and have to wake up early tomorrow, I just felt like making a small post in this right now.